Posted by: bootznall | April 21, 2008

Go have an ice-cream

I found this on another blog – thanks to Bobby and wanted to share it with you.

READ THIS VERY SLOWLY… IT’S PRETTY PROFOUND.
Too many people put off something that brings them joy just because they haven’t thought about it, don’t have it on their schedule, didn’t know it was coming or are too rigid to depart from their routine.

I got to thinking one day about all those women on the Titanic who passed up dessert at dinner that fateful night in an effort to cut back. From then on, I’ve tried to be a little more flexible.

How many women out there will eat at home because their husband didn’t suggest going out to dinner until after something had been thawed?  Does the word refrigeration mean anything to you?

How often have your kids dropped in to talk and sat in silence while you watched ‘A current Affair’ on television?

I cannot count the times I called a friend and said, “How about going to lunch in a half hour?” She would gasp and stammer, “I can’t. I have clothes on the line. My hair is dirty. I wish I had known yesterday, I had a late breakfast, It looks like rain.” And my personal favorite: “It’s Monday.” …She died a few years ago. We never did have lunch together.

Because we cram so much into their lives, we tend to schedule our headaches. We live on a sparse diet of promises we make to ourselves when all the conditions are perfect!

We’ll go back and visit the grandparents when we get Stevie toilet-trained.

We’ll entertain when we replace the living-room carpet.

We’ll go on a second honeymoon when we get two more kids out of college.

Life has a way of accelerating as we get older.

The days get shorter, and the list of promises to ourselves gets longer. One morning, we awaken, and all we have to show for our lives is a litany of “I’m going to”, “I plan on”, and “Someday, when things are settled down a bit.”

When anyone calls my ’seize the moment’ friend, she is open to adventure and available for trips She keeps an open mind on new ideas. Her enthusiasm for life is contagious.
You talk with her for five minutes, and you’re ready to trade your bad feet for a pair of Rollerblades and skip an elevator for a bungee cord.

My lips have not touched ice cream in years. I love ice cream. It’s just that I might as well apply it directly to my stomach with a spatula and eliminate the digestive process. The other day, I stopped the car and bought a magnum.

If my car had hit an iceberg on the way home, I would have died happy.

Now…go on and have a nice day. Do something you WANT to……not something on your SHOULD DO list.

If you were going to die soon and had only one phone call you could make, who would you call and what would you say?
And why are you waiting?

Make sure you read this to the end; you will understand why I sent this to you.

Have you ever watched kids playing on a merry go round or listened to the rain lapping on the ground? Ever followed a butterfly’s erratic flight or gazed at the sun into the fading night? Do you run through each day on the fly? When you ask “How are you?” Do you hear the reply?

When the day is done, do you lie in your bed with the next hundred chores running through your head?

Ever told your child, “We’ll do it tomorrow.”

And in your haste, not see his sorrow?

Ever lost touch? Let a good friendship die?

Just call to say “Hi”?

When you worry and hurry through your day, it is like an unopened gift…Thrown away… Life is not a race. Take it slower. Hear the music before the song is over.

so go have an ice-cream because you never know where the ice-bergs lurk.

big hugs

Posted by: bootznall | April 21, 2008

AHHH the sweet smell of success.

I AM REDEEMED

yes fellow elephant eaters I am redeemed in the eyes of the bjb.

Had a garage sale on Saturday and sold heaps and heaps of my stuff. BJB is very impressed but I think he is also very afraid as he is away again this week and has visions of coming home to god knows what!!!

But feel good about the change from clothes to homewares as appears at this stage it will be a good seller.  Have another garage sale organised for this weekend followed by a market stall on Sunday – so all going well on Sunday should be rolling around on the floor laughing hysterically about how clever I am.

Wait – maybe I need to take more drugs as am sure that laughing manically may not be a good sign of sanity!!!!

Cranky kid is still cranky as has a exam today and is concerned I will never speak to her again if she doesn’t perfect score.  What can I say I am a very demanding mother – Apparently!!!

Have to go and put some lamps together now.   lol

Posted by: bootznall | April 18, 2008

Now the sorting begins!!

Well I have “fessed” up collected my ill advised gotten gains in a monumental process and am now living in a shambles.  Under my house is a eclectic mix of mirrors, ride on toys, lights, saucepans, bar stools and silver

rubbish bins.  Where am I going to put this lot???

As you can see by the pictures above I have some serious sorting to do.  Having a garage sale tomorrow so will be working my little ass (wish I had a small donkey to help) to get it ready.

BJB has returned and the look on his face was priceless. Well his attempt to not have a look anyway.  It is really funny when people are trying not to upset you when all they want to do is yell and go “what the hell have you done!!!!”

By the way did I mention that in the middle of all of this goings on – the dog bit the pest control man who had come to get the rats,  the 18 year old chucked a mental because I couldn’t get her from school, have put on 1kg, got my hair done and don’t like it, blah, blah, blah   OHHH and somebody used my brand new, very expensive white towels to wipe their muddy feet on.

ARRRRGGGGGhhhhh  where’s my meditation triangle!!!

see below for picture of cranky pants kid and bitey dog..

Posted by: bootznall | April 15, 2008

OMG what have i done!!!

Omg I have been on a mad buying spree and now bjb is going to “chuck a spaz” when he finds out!!!
I sell some clothes at markets and some online at eBay and I was pretty bored with clothes so yesterday started to branch out. Actually this may have started last week if I am completely honest.. Last week I went to Office Works and they had a whole heap of stuff that had been returned and was in the half price section. Well, as anybody knows me will confirm I love a bargain. So do I buy just a couple of things. NOOOOOO. I buy $800 worth, bring them home and start listing them on ebay. Seemed like a good idea at the time, but I still have no bids on my stuff. Bugger!!! Wonder if I can take it all back, citing being crazy as a reason for buying it all!!! Do you reckon somebody could do it on my behalf?
BUT DID I STOP THERE????? NO, NO, NO, NO
I decided yesterday to buy all this stuff for the market and a garage sale (what can I say – buying for garage sale seemed sensible at the time.) I am able to buy below wholesale price so individulally it seems ok but not when you buy – wait for it 13 PALLETS of items. Yes 13 Pallets.
Good thing Bjb has gone away so I have time to get it home – somehow and sort it before he gets back!!
By the way anybody out there want to buy some toys, menswear, homewares, office furniture. OMG – have to go and meditate the anxiety away. AHHHHHHHH
Posted by: bootznall | April 12, 2008

How do you eat an elephant?

How do you eat an elephant!
One bite at a time..

This may seem a very strange analogy to start off a blog about returning to health from Depression, but it is actually the way to make small steps in your journey to wellness.
At times I have felt that tasks in my life were a bit like an elephant – gigantic and overwhelming when seen up close. How on earth was I going to make it till lunch time let alone make any decisions or achieve anything during the day.
This is when the elephant idea has come to the fore.
What it equates to is breaking it down to small bites.

Most people who I have met who live with depression and other associated mental illnesses tend to be ALL or Nothing people. We are the ones who take on the burdens of others, need to fix everything, and do it all yesterday. Then it starts to come crashing down and we cannot function properly and become completely overwhelmed – walking to the letterbox seems an impossible task let alone making a phone call or other monumental tasks. In some ways it is as if the elephant has sat on top of us. I would make lists of things I wanted to do during the day. It was as if it was on a list then it would get done. My lists would be very long and consist of complex and varied tasks. I would sit there and contemplate my list – then go back to bed. It was a self defeating exercise. I couldn’t do the list so I must be a failure and therefore would need to make more lists to try again the next day and on it would go.
It wasn’t until I stopped making the lists and just wrote down one thing to achieve for the day that things began to get done. It didn’t matter how small the task was it was just important that I had achieved something.

I had taken a bite of my elephant.

But you know what – as I started to bite the elephant a funny thing happened – some days I would even achieve 2 things. Don’t get me wrong there were many days when the couch beckoned and my family would come home and ask me what I had done and I would reply “nothing much” but these days are getting further apart.
A few days ago much to my surprise I even finished quite a few things and looked around and realised that I had completed my list and the elephant was looking very small.

Posted by: bootznall | April 11, 2008

Hello world!

Hello world,

my name is Natalie and this is my first attempt at blogging so I hope you will humour me as I work it all out.

Why not go and check out my about me page so that you can get the goss on who, what and where I am.

bootznall is a indication of how I go at life. Sometimes it is boots and all with no thought for the consequences. Ah well can always blame it on the bi-polar when it turns out a little bit skewif.

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